Stressed Out

So this last week has been rough.  I don't even know what has been bugging me but it has definitely stressed me out a lot.  I find myself thinking back to when I was a kid and realizing how easy it was back then.  Of course everyone tells you your life is easy and "just wait until you grow up" but you really can't appreciate it even if you try until you are on the other side looking back.  That's when you fully appreciate how easy it was back then.  Not that life isn't great currently either but being an adult certainly comes with a lot of responsibilities that you aren't fully sure you are ready for.  But survive you must so you carry on as best you can, simultaneously inevitably dealing with quite a bit of stress.  This song says everything I feel about growing up and probably says it better than I can too.  I love this band and this song is definitely a favorite of mine.

But back away from the water, babe, you might drown

Halloween is in the air and with it, all the creepy ghoulishness that we love to celebrate this time of year.  It doesn't have to make sense in fact, it makes it all that more creepy if it doesn't.  In that way it'll tend to bug you as your mind tries to make sense of it.  In the spirit of that I am posting the below video.  This music video to me was honestly creepy.  I understand the meaning behind it and all but the scene in the motel parking lot is just unnerving and doesn't make complete sense to me.  I could probably bullshit some meaning behind it but in the end, it has just the right amount of elusiveness to bother one's mind as to what is actually going on.  At any rate I love it and decided to post it here.

However, while on the topic of Halloween, I actually have a Halloween costume prepared in advance this year!  Yay! (jumps up and down clapping).  It's been a couple years since I've done a couple's costume but this year it all worked out and I am proud to announce that I will be Cersei Lannister while the bf is Jaime.  I think it's pretty funny so of course had to do it.  I love creative costumes always and this fit that bill while being a costume both of us will enjoy donning October 31st.

Also, guess what!  I'm adopting two new cats.  Pictures and details will be posted this weekend since that is when I am getting them.  I am taking in a mother cat and her kitten.  I have names picked and everything but will not be announcing that until I make their official post.  More on them later but just had to share that tidbit.

What's My Age Again

My birthday is about a month away, and I could not be more excited.  Yes, I'll be a year older, 24 to be exact, but really age is just a number.  Inside honestly I still feel like a kid.  I still get really excited over the small things and honestly don't have a clue about any of the "adulting" stuff that I'm supposed to be about.  The "fun" ages may technically be over but honestly, to me they aren't over until I say they are.  So cheers to being perpetually young at heart. 
That being said, I still love video games.  I am one of the few PC gamers and have been since I was a kid.  Yes, I have debated getting a PS4 or an Xbox One but in the end my heart is with PC.  The games are almost always better on that platform and I find it easier to play on, granted maybe that's because it's all I've ever known.  Either way, adult me still hasn't grown up from my love of video games.
So today I will share with you a game that looks intriguing and exciting to me.  It doesn't have a release date announced and who knows how much fun it'll actually be to play, but I do love the artwork and from this trailer it looks like a lot of fun.  I definitely anticipate finding out more as it is developed and potentially playing it in the future!

Welcome to My Life

so...today has been crazy to say the least.  Actually the past 2 days have been.  It all started yesterday when I decided to go on a grocery errand.  That then turned into my car breaking down on the highway, and I had to get it towed to a repair shop.  Today, I found out that basically a part just broke way before it should have and as a result I will need to pay 2k to fix all the damage.  Talk about bad luck.  So just as my job was picking up and I was looking forward to having extra money, now all my extra money will be going to this car repair.  So, the following song has definitely been how I feel today.  Actually, any song by Simple Plan today has been what I've been in the mood for.  I've just been really down today trying to get over the shock of this.  Especially because I'm so attached to this car but I'm now faced with whether I should trade it in before it just starts having repairs left and right since this past year it definitely has put a dent in my wallet.  Oh life.  But enough on that, I'll just leave this song here for ya.

I'm Just a Kid

Whether we want to or not, we grow up.  Time passes by before you know it.  I know at age 23 I'm just wondering where all the time went and how I got here so fast.  It's weird doing this adulting thing.  I actually have to be responsible and all that.
I know I'm still adjusting to this new phase of life even though sometimes I feel like I'm still just a kid who doesn't know what they are doing.  The truth is though everyone around you, all your friends and peers, feel the same way.  They may look like they are all put together and know what they are doing but what they don't tell you is that they are new to this too and it's making them feel just as awkward and weird.
Some days you are a boss ass bitch and you feel like you owned at life but as you adjust into this new world and stage there will be the days that you feel lost and like you can't do anything right.  The important thing to remember is that you aren't alone and it's ok to feel lost sometimes.  Sometimes that's what helps us figure things out so that we do better next time.
Most importantly don't lose the kid at heart that is inside you.  Yes, you are now responsible for the food on your table and the roof above you but that doesn't mean you have to lose your fun spirit and stop having fun.  You can grow up without becoming serious and boring.  Life will stress you out but don't forget to have fun once in a while.

Charmed

So, for the past couple of weeks, I have been working in a different grooming salon where I am learning how to do actual haircuts on dogs.  While there I have met a whole new group of coworkers and one of them introduced me to the punk rock band Dynamite Boy.  I actually really like the band and so below is a song of theirs.  I like how the lead singers sound reminds me a little of Big Reel Fish but it's obviously not Ska haha. 

Mr. and Mrs. Beautiful

The Workday Release is an artist that I ran across recently and I have ended up loving their music.  This song is the one that I really love although all their songs are pretty.   This artist isn't super well known yet either so I am really glad to have found this little gem. 

Every Time I look for You

So recently I've been talking to an old friend.  Actually, this person is an ex of mine.  We dated for a couple years and then he broke up with me because he decided I wasn't his "perfect girl".  Since then he's been dating a girl for a little over a year. 
We are over each other and now every now and then I give him relationship advice since I know him really well and can help him sort out any issues he's having.  Recently, now that he's been with this other girl a while, he's finding similar reasons to break up with her that he had with me.  They aren't the same reasons he had with me, but they are small things yet again.  Let me tell you, if he keeps the way he's going he's never going to be happy with anyone and here is why.
He has this image of his perfect girl and instead of focusing on what he loves about his girl he lets the little imperfections gnaw at him and skew his view of the relationship because she doesn't meet this expectation he has. 
Our recent conversations have had me thinking about relationships and the expectations versus realities.  Reality is, you won't ever find the "perfect" person, but you do learn to love them just as they are.  Not every relationship is meant to be but if you have a great person and let little things get in the way, it's going to ruin every relationship you have. 
I feel like in this world a lot of people do this because we are constantly fed images of a "perfect couple" in movies and media.  People are raised thinking that when it's meant to be then no issues will be present and it will be the honeymoon phase forever.  A happy relationship is wonderful, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't take work and compromise to enjoy it.  I'm completely happy in my current relationship but no, it is not exactly how I pictured a perfect relationship.  The truth is, I'm happier with it being different than what I pictured and I wouldn't have it any other way because I love my boyfriend exactly the way he is and if he did act how I pictured a perfect relationship he wouldn't be him and honestly, I may not even like our relationship as much.  In the end, my relationship with him has become my perfect relationship. 
Think about it.  You are taking two completely different people with different backgrounds, experiences, and personalities and combining their lives into one.  That alone indicates that there will be rough patches and adjusting to do on both parts.
I am not condoning lowering standards though.  Standards you have should be maintained and you should know what you won't budge on when it comes to what you expect from a relationship.  There are always things that you need in a relationship that are dealbreakers if they aren't present.  However, when it comes to the little stuff, people need to stop dwelling on what doesn't match up with their image and be happy with what they do have.  The world isn't perfect so it's no surprise that the people in it aren't either.    

We are the Crazy Kids

Traveling and going somewhere new to vacation and party is never a bad idea.  It's a ton of fun.  Honestly though, to have a great time you don't necessarily have to spend a lot of money going somewhere new.  I find some of my equally best memories come from those easygoing, simple nights with friends. 

Earlier this week my friend and I decided to hang out and do a belated birthday celebration for her since I wasn't able to celebrate when she had her birthday.  We went out for a couple drinks but then we went back to her place to just chill in her apartments hot tub and sip on another drink.  Honestly, it was definitely a time to remember.  It was just us and my boyfriend hanging out and we just enjoyed good conversation relaxing in a hot tub.  It's a pretty simple recipe for a great night and we had a lot of fun doing it.  It was exactly the kind of break from my busy schedule that I needed,

Vacations are awesome and definitely should be had, but when the budget is tight or you can't take too much time off, you really can have a great time just hanging out with close friends.  All through college some of my best nights were the simpler nights.  Yes, the pre-planned huge Halloween party of senior year or the various other events I hosted or attended were a lot of fun but I have just as many good memories from the simple nights as well.  Just a reminder to those who can't necessarily go somewhere for a vacation or do something elaborate, as long as you have a few good friends you can easily have just as memorable a time.

I'm Staring at my Closet full of Clothes and I still have Nothing to Wear

So I went shopping yesterday with a friend.  It is a guilty pleasure of mine although I do prefer to call it my hobby.  I don't know what it is about clothes.  Honestly, they are way overpriced, and they are a terrible investment.  You don't get your money back at all from them, but yet so many people still put so much money into them.  In fact, I have a closet full of clothes, I really don't need more, but yet I still love to go out and browse shops looking for a killer outfit to join my closet. 

Don't get me wrong, all wardrobes need updating and revising, but I know many people, myself included, who own way more clothes than they know what to do with this.

I don't know about everyone else, but I know for me it is just fun to shop.  I enjoy looking at what is new and out there.  Trying on clothes to see what different ones look like on me is fun.  Finally, picking out one or two to bring home and add to my wardrobe is the prize.  I love finding new outfits for special occasions.  Or even looking for one for a future occasion of which I have no idea of yet.  There's just something about shopping and finding an outfit that looks amazing on that just feels good.  This however does lead to excessive clothes and it really is a terrible investment.  Even on sale some clothes are so very expensive.  I went into this cute little boutique in the mall yesterday and everything in there was so expensive but very very cute.  I only came out with a pair of $3 earrings and honestly, that felt like a steal in this store.  I say this because when I found my way to the sale section they had shirts on "sale" for $40.  $40!  Imagine the original price of that shirt then?  And that's not even a complete outfit, that is just a shirt you are getting.  Their sale section was far from what I consider a sale but the clothes were cute enough that many people would get them anyway.  Granted, I have found that the more pricey an item is, it tends to be better quality and will last.  But honestly, with the rate I shop, only a select few clothes last my style preferences beyond a few years so is getting quality really that important when you shop as much as I do?  Some outfits, yes, you will keep forever and it will be worth it.  Most of the time however I find this is not the case.

Enough on clothes though, I'm sure I'm boring you but for some reason I felt like talking about them and how ridiculous and yet fun clothes can be. 

Future Hearts

So, at like 1:00 in the morning today, before going to sleep, I decided right then was a fantastic time to buy a new music album.  I know, best time ever for that right?  Anyway, I ended up getting the album Future Hearts by All Time Low and let me tell you, it did not disappoint me in any way.  I listened to it once last night to fall asleep to so I re-listened this morning so I could give a better, non sleep induced review haha.  I love it.  I think the album is stronger at the beginning with the first songs but it may take a few listens for the last few to become just as loved.  With all that said, it was really hard to pick a song to post as a sample from the album.  I was torn between three.  I ended up deciding on the song "Missing You" that I have posted below.  I don't know about all of you, but I love punk rock/pop rock and this album is everything I could want from a punk rock album.  It's angsty.  It speaks to the misunderstood side of you but also tells you everything will be ok.  That is what I love about it.  So if this is your kind of music give a listen, because this album is amazing and I know I will be listening to it on repeat this summer season.

Lying is the Most Fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off - Panic! at the Disco

I love this classic song.  However, today was the first day I saw the music video after hearing this song for years and I have to say, I loved it.  It's weird, artsy, and unique.  What's not to love!  So yes, please watch it and enjoy this amazing song.

I Fell In Love With The Girl At The Rock Show...

So I decided maybe I should explain my blog title.  I love Punk rock music.  Blink 182 is one of my favorite bands (among many) and I love this line from their song "The Rock Show."  I can't really explain it, I just love it. 
I think it's because the hopeless romantic in me automatically pictures this guy and girl that don't know each other meeting at their favorite bands show and they fall in love.  Every time I hear this song it just makes me imagine that, and it's just a pretty picture in my head. 
So fast forward to today, I tried thinking of what I wanted to call my blog that will have a lot of personal stories or thoughts on it.  This phrase in a way captures a part of me and who I am so I thought it was a perfect title for my blog.  Anything can change in an instant and that's how I live life.  I live spontaneously and that's what that phrase says in a way.  You can meet someone in an instant that you will love for forever, and maybe it's just because you decided to buy tickets to see that band.  Crazy that that choice could change your entire life...or not.  I love that concept.  I know that's a lot to put behind just that one phrase but that's what that phrase from that song is to me and that's why it was a perfect name for my blog.

So Small in Such a Large City

I recently moved to Austin, TX and it's been quite an adventure.  I have always lived in Texas but this was my first time in a new city all by myself without anyone I know here.  Believe me, it is not at all what I expected. 
First off, I had no idea how hard it would be to meet new friends.  I have had friends my whole life so not having friends right away was very foreign and scary to me.  Over the last 8 months of living here I have made a few friendships but it's still an uphill struggle to get together a core group.  A lot of the people I meet are either homebodies, happy at home with their significant other or they already have a friend group and just aren't looking for more friendships.  Since my boyfriend is two hours away, I want people to hang with during the week when he isn't here visiting.  So that has definitely been one of the biggest struggles of moving.  However, beyond that I have loved the experience.  I am living in one of my dream cities (my other being someplace in California) and it's amazing waking up every day knowing that I am making it here. 
I also found my best friend here, Pickles.  Pickles is a dog I found running along a road.  After failing to find his owner I decided to let him stay with me and he has been a blessing every day.
I also am in a city that has a wide variety of things to do.  It's coming up on summer now and I am so psyched for lazy days by the pool or lake with a smirnoff ice in hand!  That is the life indeed.
I currently work in a grooming salon and dog daycare and couldn't be happier.  Working with dogs is my dream so I am really happy that I have the opportunity to work in my dream field. 
Anyway, that is kind of where I am coming from and where my future stories will be based!  I am excited to share them in the future.  I got to go now, food is calling my name, but I'm sure I will be back with thoughts, pictures, or songs that speak to me on particular days.